Surprise Yourself

Kicked into my world and sprung into action.

 

At a time I almost now cannot pin point or describe as clearly as the sensations that reside within.

So much has been shared

Experiences were full and spontaneous.

Satisfying.

Laughter.

 

Kicked into my world and sprung into action.

 

Struck when I least expected it.

Bright, sharp and straight to my core.

Awakening my entire kinesphere,

Making me brave and bold, I took a risk.

Striking, revealing and expressing

me.

Easy, no regret, never second guessing.

 

Kicked into my world and sprung into action.

 

Willingly charming

no strategy, no intention.

Connection, energy and vibrations seen and felt.

Lives crossing, intersecting without explanation or understanding.

No need to make any sense of it.

Playful.

 

With hunger to intensify, to persist, to explore and adventure.

Willingly accepting the invitation, following the current.

Swept away and swept under.

Doing cartwheels, spinning, turning and dancing around.

 

To laugh, listen, share, embrace.

To praise and acknowledge all the beauty in the other.

To teach, offer, share wisdom, past experience

To play, joke, create unique spaces or energy.

Portals of freedom.

 

Infinite possibilities.

Expectations become a thing of the past.

Time no longer a pressure.

No such thing as time.

 

Kicked into my world and sprung into action.

 

So much to be gained, so much was gained.

Never missed a minute, a beat or a sound.

Feeling free,

Relinquished control, let go and let it be.

Set free and set flight to their wings, to my skies above.

See them rise above with pure joy and happiness.

 

Kicked into my world and sprung into action.

 

 

 

As the moon falls the sun rises

So much can change, 

too much can happen. 

You can feel a lot or not a lot.

 

Reflection, reflecting

to look back and see a patch, a field, an empty or a full room.

Acknowledging and accepting the space that has been filled

the gaps that still remain,

yet to be filled.

A gap that can sometimes feel as if it’s becoming harder to fill,

or maybe you are still left not quite knowing

not quite knowing what to fill it with.

 

You either feel as if you know,

that you have the answers,

yes you know…

this time around you have figured it all out…

or

you remain confused, scared, vulnerable and in the hands of the void, the unknown, the mystery…the dream.

 

So much can change, 

too much can happen. 

You can feel a lot or not a lot.

 

The rounds keeps playing,

your cards are being dealt.

It’s what you will choose to do with these, with this

with where you are

thats what will create impact,

change,

difference,

experience.

It is this that moves you forward,

that allows you to begin again and again.

That grants you the blessing of reflection and opportunity,

the right to change,

to grow,

to reform,

to be reborn.

 

It is new, you are new.

So honour this gift, this start,

this beginning of something, of everything that is yet to follow,

yet to exist.

 

So much can change, 

too much can happen. 

You can feel a lot or not a lot.

 

You create it.

So create a new,

be a new,

but most of all be YOU!

 

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These Eyes

These eyes once closed, they slowly begin to crack open

gently, but apprehensively, fearful of the unknown, of what may lay before them.

They carry expectations, imagination, thoughts and feelings

that are soon to be completely flipped upside down.

They flicker, squint, allowing the light to slowly seep inward,

the way daylight pierces through that crack, that space between the shutters.

They widen and open to the warm offerings of this glow

feeling the energy trickle, passing through, meeting the core and awakening it.

A connection has been felt, has been made.

It’s all beginning again,

it’s new,

it’s happening,

you have arrived.

Suddenly a weightlessness is experienced

caused by a dropping, grounded sensation

connection.

The eyes now filled with light, are soft

no longer intense in their gaze, not guarded or afraid

of uncertainty or unfamiliarity of what forms their vision.

With every blink they see the beauty,

the teachings of the changes

of the shifting energy.

With each and every blink they find more compassion,

appreciation,

towards the offerings of each body and thing

that forms each picture,

moment,

experience.

They notice that each image passes as quickly as it arrived.

Where each is now embraced completely in order to let it go.

With this continuous transformation in which they experience,

they open from within, widening,

transferring the light, warmth and energy received

back out to be felt and shared.

These eyes, they now don’t just see,

they become a portal

transferring energies, sending compassion, connecting to one,

everyone.

These eye’s no longer afraid

commit to the idea of constantly changing their perceptions

on life,

on what it means to be,

present.

Now these eyes, feel vulnerability.

They feel more responsibility,

they experience a greater depth of field.

But it’s real, honest and true, theres difference in how they approach.

These eyes are now more fully formed,

they see more clearly,

Adjust more willingly,

Ask more questions.

They are grateful, they feel blessed.

They cherish each moment that has and that will flicker past.

Each sighting has helped them to breakdown that which was guarding them,

that which they were fearful of sharing, showing, expressing.

With every blink these eyes take, vibrations reverberate outward,

generating and empowering ones mark,

growing and spreading to create meaning and the essence of all we experience.

Beautiful eyes all around me today.

They are honest, compassionate and open.

Thanks is given to everyone for allowing these eyes to be seen and for those eyes to be felt too.

Gratitude is felt for these eyes and those eyes for widening, opening so much that we now begin to become one.

Reflections of ‘Power Of Now Oasis’ 200hr Yoga Teaching Training

March 2015

Written on Sanur Beach, Bali

Annabel Saies

Bel in Motion

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The question is: What does it mean for you to be in motion? What is your motion?

In physics motion = a change in position of an object with respect to time. Motion is typically described in terms of displacement, distance, velocity.

A motion can = a movement, gesture, signal, action.

My previous experiences of motion have been in relation to the physical movement and activities I have acquired and learned in my body. Through dance, through sport, through yoga and through the functional actions of the muscles and bones of my body. However recently I have come to see that absolutely everything around me and inside of me is in constant motion. Nothing is ever quite still. Our thoughts, our environment, bodies, relationships… everything. We exist in a sphere in which everything is constantly flowing, displacing, changing in form.. every second.

I am interested in the idea of motion. Of constant change and the displacement of myself, objects, the body, thoughts, people, situations and experiences. An idea that idea for me has been overwhelming before. Making me feel out of control and caught up in the chaos, un able to choose my own direction or find how I fit. However I no longer feel so overwhelmed. So this is good !!  Right now, the idea of it brings me a sense of ease and lightness as I ponder over the infinite possibilities that can arise in any given moment of our lives. I am starting to realise that I have a choice about how this all affects me. I have the power to let it engulf me or feed me. This excites me. So much can be learned, experienced, seen and shared.

I want to live my life in awareness of these motions. I want to take this awareness and take further action upon these motions. I want to put effort into combining awareness and action to make a small dent on humanity, a small dent in both my existence and then in turn those who I happen to cross paths with. I can not predict or exactly define how I will achieve this, but I do know that it begins with awareness of my actions, my motion, my energy. With self inquiry and self work. By becoming more in tune with myself, how i move and act in the world, I can then reflect upon how this affects others, giving me the space to connect, share and experience life with people in a genuine way. My effort is to act genuinely, authentically.

Bel in Motion is a new wave for me. It’s purpose is to bring together my interest in dance: physical movement, form of the body, both creatively and functionally.  Yoga: my own practice, teaching and integration of it into all facets of life. And the sharing of my thoughts, opinions, facts around areas of interest, whatever this may be. I like that it gives me freedom to change what it means, what it’s purpose is and where my intention lies. Its definition can change as I do, as the world does. I feel like sometimes we can limit our lives, our potential, and ourselves by labelling, choosing to call ourselves something, defining ourselves by our job, careers, lifestyle, peoples opinions of us.. But is this really living a full, wholehearted, authentic life?? Or are we living a false representation of ourselves, living in the perception of ourselves.

Everyday we feel different, our opinions are slightly different, what we see is different. I believe we should feel free to assess and re assess constantly. To watch and observe the changes and flux of our motion.

 

Wheres the point?

The unexamined life is not worth living.” Socrates

Two things I have come to realise I will never have the answer’s for are:

  1. I will never really know how I got here
  2. I will never really know how I will leave here

One thing I have found an answer for is:

  1. I am here right now, this is all, this is enough, and right now I do currently exist, in this moment, right now… now

These answers however are just ideas. They are just things for for me to grasp on to so that space can be created. Space to let go of fear and the uncertainty of this life I live within. Space to live freely and consciously in moments that continuously offer new experiences, in which these experiences then fade, disappear and no longer exist. I feel like sometimes I am living in three different worlds. Or rather trying to hold onto three different ways of existing.

  1. To live, exist, react, respond in the current moment that is happening.
  2. Living in the past, in the memories, in the moments that have already occurred, re-tracing them, trying to make sense of them, understand them.
  3. And finally living in the transitional space. The space where you take some of the past with you unsure of how to really use this information or experience in order to act accordingly in the current moment or the future moments to come

I reflect upon my experiences to this day, I am living in the past and present at the same time. And I try to make sense, analyse and question why I did those things, what they gave to me, how they got me here today. But none of it really makes sense because I realise at the end of the day that who I was in those moments in that time when they were experienced, is a different person to who I am today, so its hard to accurately determine exactly why I did them.

As I continue to engage in a self-study, self investigation about what it means for me to exist, move, breath and be in this reality or non-reality all I can grasp right now is that there is a dynamic and energy, a pulsation, a being that is constantly changing, constantly fluctuating, constantly adapting. My being, my dynamic, my energy, its there but it cannot be defined and shouldn’t be defined by all that it has experience thus far. How do we really know that these experiences that we believe to have been a part of, really existed? They can’t ever be reenacted ever again, they can’t be viewed played back, re-visited..?

We do have memories and thoughts of past experiences which reveal when given the opportunity to surface. But I feel it is important to notice if these memories serve us now in this current moment? If we believe that these experiences do not define who we currently are in this very moment, then why do we place so much weight and importance on them to make some decisions? Do they really make us feel more alive, more connected to the life, to the living of today to the being in this moment?

We become attached to this memories, to these experiences, achievements, mistakes, failures and triumphs and we tend to build layers, roles, definitions around our being in order to define us, to make sense of how we live, what our purpose is, what our intentions are in this world… But I wonder how the feeling could change, how the connection between the being and life could bind more tightly, become more tactile, give more strength, power control and decisiveness to our actions if we were to let go of all these attachments. If we allowed ourselves to be vulnerable in the notion that nothing lasts, that all we have is the feeling, the awareness of our surrounds and the constant reflection of how we feel about these surrounds in each and every moment. Realising that each thing we experience will never again ever happen.

Our journey is filled with infinite unique moments that will never ever occur again. Maybe this makes you feel sad or fearful because there is nothing besides your being to hold onto. But actually it may free you, it may make you realise that nothing because nothing lasts we can continuously start again, start fresh and approach things more clearly in each opportunity we are given.

Only the present moment can accurately define us, the past and the future do not exist and my effort is directed toward listening to what ones energy, heart, soul desires and allowing it to feel the constant change.

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No Space Needs Me

A quote from a dear friend.

“No space needs me, but I have things that I can offer the space. And it not about serving the space. It’s about making an offer and providing a possibility the space may not have”

Linton Aberle

Sometimes in our lives that are clouded and distracted by other peoples lives, chores, daily routines, it takes one friend to pull you out. Something they say that triggers a new way of thinking or brings you back to the reality of where you actually stand. Yeah you may have done all these things, achieved some work related goals, made the effort to acknowledge your loved ones efforts and successes but have you in each and every one of those happenings been aware of yourself of what you have brought of where you existed in and amongst this chaos.

Today the rain drips on the tin roof of my apartment. It’s a morning that follows a series of saddened events and experiences. Some less significant than others, but nonetheless sad. Whether it’s saying goodbye to a brother half way across the world, the conclusion of an incredible family holiday, the pain and frustration of an injury, or watching someone you love disappear into the universe. These happenings for me always trigger a necessity to reflect, respond or try to make sense of unpleasant situations. I have noticed in my self over the past year that my nature is to find the radiant sunlight in the darkest of places. This search however always being sent for others, in attempt to brighten and uplift their spirits rather than my own.

The quote above, to me, relates to all of what I have said. I have come to realise that I am not needed. If you removed just the element of me from situations not much would be too different. Although this may seem dark and depressing it has given me some freedom and lightness. I am beginning to see that nothing is about me, what’s important isn’t measured on what I do. It is actually about what I am offering in each moment of all the things I do or that I am a part of. Its about what I can bring and offer to a moment or situation that may change its trajectory or open possibilities that may not have occurred otherwise. In the nature of reflection, when reminiscing about people who have come in and out of your life, I think about what they offered the space. What they have given me that couldn’t have been learnt, picked up or experienced in any other way. It’s made me realize that in so many situations I feel hindered in the space. Unsure of what to fill it with, scared that what I may offer will not suffice. But non of this actually matters because an offering shifts the direction, the happenings and circumstances of a moment or situation. I figure that this is more important, this serves everyone more deeply.

So like I said the radiant sun is shed upon the darkness that some may see from this blog. Be free, be unattached and know that your offerings serve greatness to all moments and know that whatever you have to offer no one else does. So be brave and courageous and offer the space something different. Change it’s course, direction and see what happens.

Life is full of space that is already filled with meaning, however there is endless amounts of space still to be explored, even the ones which may seem already concurred.

Belconnen Arts Centre

2014 Soft Landing @ BAC 001_201a

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2014 Soft Landing @ BAC 001_200a     2014 Soft Landing @ BAC 001_48a

Performance choreographed and performed by Soft Landers 2014 in collaboration with Amelia McQueen and Natalie Abbott . Belconnen Arts Centre Canberra

Photography by Lorna Sim

 

Image 1,2,3: Dancers Annabel Saies and Emily Bowman

Image 4: Dancers Annabel Saies and Tess Feldman